Oomph

I'm tired of reducing following Christ to mere nice-guy living.
I know enough to know that I'm settling.
What does it mean anyway to live in the power of the Holy Spirit?
I'm resisting the idea that discipleship is knowledge dissemination and/or praying for people and/or accountability groups.
What of mystery and power so great and so true that it scares us...
I want to be with a Jesus who I can't understand, and one that I never pretend to understand.