Where I'm at Today

I'm realizing that I care about an awful lot of people who are far away from me right now, 6 in particular.
I don't understand how Jesus seems close yet elusive all at the same time.
I love my job.... I loved college too, but I prefer the tangible sweat and sights and sounds and smells and real frustrations and real people to the world of theoretical ministry classes.
I feel like a good cry is in order, but I can't put my finger on why.
I wish I had money and lots of it.
I believe that In writing this I'm dodging something that I should be tending to.